Starting again

There are a few things that I would like to discuss. The one that comes to mind right now is that I might be able to still remain here. This is totally dependent on my ability to be transferred to another department. I don’t know if that will happen, but if so, then I can have a chance to “start again”. In fact I am not really starting again, but in a manner I am. I need to move to a new environment where people, specifically management don’t act stupid, and don’t have a CYA attitude.

I am trying to keep a good attitude, and I am partly to blame. My father told me no matter what they do, do not show that you are upset with management. No matter how bad they get. I unfortunately reached my limit, and basically told them they are soon going to lose me. They responded by taking most of my work away from me. The only work that I have left is that one that I am not allowed to track my hours to. I was also told to make it less functional than a competing version, so that my work would not be chosen by our customer! What the hell kind of thinking is this?! They want to promote Abap WebDynPro. That is fine, but to CTA’s they want another version written in Java WebDynPro, just in case our customer wants a choice. The kicker is that I have to make my version of the application, the java one, LESS functional than the ABAP version. This is not a case of writing your best possible work, and let the more functional one win. This is a case where they want to promote a specific technology, and the rest be damned and if the competing technology works better, well then let’s remove some functionality.

I am seriously sick of this work environment. I wanted to quit a while ago, but my company would not accept my resignation. I even ask myself right now why I let myself get bamboozled into taking back my resignation. I do want to stay here, in the country, a resignation means I would need to leave, but I need a break, I need to go back and visit my parents, brother, sister, nieces, and nephews.

However alhamdulillah, I might this opportunity to move to a better more professional department, at least I hope it is, and “start over” with better more professional management, and hope that I can hold my own with the other techies. This is the story of a guy who would like to be a decision maker, who at one time was in America, but these dogs here don’t have respect for most individuals, and will not let them advance. I could have been a lead tech in java, or a project architect by now. Beright back

One comment on “Starting again

  1. Hello !!
    how r ya ?!
    well after reading all what u wrote , and the things that u suffered from working in KSA I felt so sorry!!
    u know it is so disappointing to jus think that Muslim ppl will be fallen to this level of degradation, I'm not blaming ISLAM cuz its not the problem , the problem is in the ppl !!
    u were right abt being caring abt “less work and more laugh” , as a “Saudi girl” its so true in ppl in KSA “to be more exact most of the arabian ppl” jus love to sit and do nothing , they wanna work less and gain more money they jus love that, I don't really know where the hell did they came up with such thoughts!!
    No one cares abt creativity , most of the orginaizations here just apply the “VERTICAL ORGANIZATION”, in other wards u must do what u’ve told otherwise “bibi”!!
    u c I'm really so terribled to jus admire these facts , to just know how r we affecting the name of ISLAM in this horrible way!
    The whole Universe is changing each and every minute , everything is working hard , the Sun ,the Moon ,Trees , ants and till the smallest creatures in this life ,,, right !!
    U know I’m so glad knowing such a brilliant Introspective Muslim , it feels so nice, I wish I can meet up with those ppl who u worked with all these 7 years so I can
    ( HeeEeyaaaa, Boooom, Yaaaaa!! I think u get the idea right , lol >o< !!)
    And belive me don’t u ever feel stupid “sorry !!” just because u did ur best in something , cuz u r doing it to please God and ur self , “I truly understand ur feelings cuz it happens to me all the time” O.o
    This is what I call sincerity , and it’s a missing thing in ppl now adays !!
    I really wish u from my deep heart that u achieve all ur hopes and goals in life , and to live a happy wonderful life , full with joy and happiness and guideness !
    Hey btw I’m studying accounting and cuz of that I was blabbering lil bit about vertical stuff ,, hehe ^^ !!
    chaaAaow ,